Sort of. I have good and bad days. While my job is in the field I want to be in (predictive modeling/SWE), the team culture is so meh. No one talks to one another.
I'm 25 and I am about a year into the first serious relationship of my life. She is everything I could ever ask for, but I just have constant anxiety that I'm never good enough (I make a really good salary, run a nonprofit outside of work, and have a huge variety of interesting things about me), despite her constant reassurances to the contrary (she doesn't know I have these feelings of inadequacy. I kind of feel like Alexander Skarsgard's character (sans the violence, for sure) in Big Little Lies - he tells his wife, "I'm fearful because you could have your pick of the litter, leave me at the drop of a hat and be with someone equally wonderful just like that." I also have been plagued recently by a few bouts of "losing wood" when having sex - nothing more disappointing to me than getting her almost "there" and then my little member disappears... But even just this last weekend we had great sex three days in a row... then for some reason things just don't go as planned other nights.
Can relate. Tell her all that and stay the course. Trust takes a long time to build, even if you don't feel like it's lacking. Hard to be vulnerable about that kind of stuff but if she's understanding and supportive you'll develop deeper intimacy and the sexual anxiety will clear up over time.
