It seems like you got some really interesting results. I meditate on my own for a while and like you I found several "more or less scary reasons" to stop.
Recently I started again with a teacher and it is awesome. It makes all the good bits great and minimizes all the unpleasant stuff.
There is a dude called Alan Chapman, who has a great deal of experience with meditation and dream states. In addition to this he reads Wired and is down to earth.
Recently I started again with a teacher and it is awesome. It makes all the good bits great and minimizes all the unpleasant stuff.
There is a dude called Alan Chapman, who has a great deal of experience with meditation and dream states. In addition to this he reads Wired and is down to earth.