Outstanding. This is how I feel as well. It seems things are so abstracted away these days, you just need to take it for "face value". I had found myself going to Google and Stackoverflow looking for answers while attempting to learn programming. It was somewhere along those lines where I was honest with myself and said there's no way I'm a programmer - I'm just using other peoples' code and reverse engineering it.

That was the point I decided that there was no sense pretending anymore and got into a different line of work.